Changes, changes, changes.. here we go again..
One thing that I enjoy very much about this community is that we can talk about anything that is going on in our lives. We understood long time ago that this site is not just about sexy things - it's way more then that. The reason why we are all coming together to this place is to share our lives and find the support that we are looking for. I have enjoyed a lot to share with you guys my feelings, experiences and ideas over the years but I also enjoyed to share pieces of my life that mattered to me. If you have been following me for some time you know about the changes that I have been going through for the past few weeks. I made a decision to move on with my life which could be best described with a quote from Carl Jung: "We Have to be willing to let go of the life we have planned in order to have the life that is waiting for us." It's not always easy to move on and adjust to a new life even when you feel it's the right thing to do. Sometimes you may feel like you are not in control and life is just something that is happening to you..
bisexuality..
Would you like to see me with another woman? Where does fantasy end and real life begin and can the two peacefully coexist. So, I did think about it and continue to do so. The thought of watching me with another woman is stunning. I have of course thought about it before, but in the same way a notion passes through the mind like, " I wish I had a cookie"......but when proposed as a reality, well, that raises questions. And what of the aftermath? What are the consequences? Is it just sex? Acting? Friendship? Fun? Experimentation? All of the above? None of the above? Is she someone I get to know or simply a prop? Would she be a friend of mine or a stranger? What kind of person is she? What kind of woman would I select to be intimate with? Would I like her? Would it matter? It's really a hard thing to wrap your head around. How would something like that even work? What would it be like? Thinking about all the possibilities is in itself a terrifically erotic experience, even removing the sexual aspect. How would that happen? What are the rules? Are there rules? ..?
Universe..
..so "f_ck the whole universe..".. haha, yes.. I heard this this morning and I felt like someone, who can win the war with the universe.. you have those feelings, when you are angry, disappointed, or so.. buuuut.. but what the universe is? can you really f_ck it? :D The universe is commonly defined as the totality of everything that exists, including all matter and energy, the planets, stars, galaxies, and the contents of intergalactic space. Definitions and usage vary and similar terms include the cosmos, the world and nature. Scientific observation of earlier stages in the development of the universe, which can be seen at great distances, suggests that the universe has been governed by the same physical laws and constants throughout most of its extent and history. There are various multiverse theories, in which physicists have suggested the universe is one among many universes that likewise exist. and now Im really not sure, if we are really strong enough and able to f_ck the whole universe, but.. wel.. lets try.. just dont give it up! and wait for me guys tonight, we gonna try it together :-) hah, that crazy.. another crazy blog, im sorry, i didnt sleep so well.. lol
Time to Trust Yourself
Low self-esteem and negative body image are the two most common reasons (I hear), to explain why people are not living their dreams. But what do these terms mean, and why do they have such a harmful effect on so many people? In a nutshell, self-esteem refers to how you feel about who you think you are. If you feel pretty good about who you think you are, then you will probably have good self-esteem. Body image, however, refers to how you feel about what you think you look like specifically, how sexually attractive you think you are to others. The more importance we place on being considered sexually attractive to others, the more vulnerable our self-esteem is. Healthy self-esteem does not rely on other people's opinion of us. So how do we take charge over our self-esteem? How do we take back the power of determining our self worth, from others? The answer is simple: by trusting ourselves. It is time to stop relying so heavily on external evaluations. We "know" that we are worthy. We "know" that we are attractive. We embrace this truth, and we feel it, wholly. Ask yourself what you find attractive, and my hunch is that your definition doesn't all come down to size and shape. If you know that you have negative body image, and low self esteem then this challenge should help. Expanding Your Definition of Beauty and Self Worth. Follow these four steps and make it happen:nStep One: Think about the people that you admire (they don't have to be people that you actually know), and make a list of their names.nStep Two: What are the qualities and characteristics that these people exude? (The qualities that make you admire them).nStep Three: Identify which of those qualities and characteristics you also possess.nStep Four: This week, allow yourself to demonstrate some of these qualities. (Allow yourself to show the world how magnificent you are!) ..
Find the peace within
I went through changes last weeks. First days was just an emotional roller coaster for me. Next days were already better. I was fine during the day, I was able to focus on planning my new life, but I was still stuck without an energy that's necessary to be creative and I still felt very lonely as soon as the sun went down. Finally I decided to try and see if I can be just with myself in a complete peace. I felt the peace that I was looking for. It was there and I felt happy because for me this was a huge accomplishment. I think that the peace was always there but I found it only when I decided to actually look for it instead of looking for distractions. Being able to feel safe, happy and creative when Im alone is a huge gift for me. It makes me feel stronger and more appreciated. I think that being in peace with yourself is a basic thing that will only make your friendships better and stronger. Now that my motivation and creativity kicked back in again I am excited to be sharing more pieces of my life with you guys and I would love if you could do the same thing.
..hate..
Well, this morning I was thinking about, why people feel hate.. why are they haters, when you are successfull.. and what is hate? hate is a deep and emotional extreme dislike, directed against a certain object or class of objects. The objects of such hatred can vary widely, from inanimate objects to animals, oneself or other people, entire groups of people, people in general, existence, or the whole world. Though not necessarily, hatred is often associated with feelings of anger and disposition towards hostility against the objects of hatred. Hatred can become very driven. Actions after a lingering thought are not uncommon upon people or oneself. Hatred can result in extreme behavior such as viooolence, muuurder and wwaarr :-( In psychoanalysis, Sigmund Freud defined hate as an ego state that wishes to destroy the source of its unhappiness. Psychology defines hate as a "deep, enduring, intense emotion expressing animosity, anger, and hostility towards a person, group, or object." Because hatred is believed to be long-lasting, many psychologists consider it to be more of an attitude or disposition than a temporary emotional state. In one experiment, people had their brains scanned while viewing pictures of people they hated. The results showed increased activity in the middle frontal gyrus, right putamen, bilaterally in the premotor cortex, in the frontal pole, and bilaterally in the medial insular cortex of the human brain. The researchers concluded that there is a distinct pattern of brain activity that occurs when people are experiencing hatred. woah! :-o
Jealousy: Getting to Know Yourself
"O' beware, my lord of jealousy; it is the green-eyed monster, which does mock the meat it feeds on." (Othello Act 3 Scene 3) .. Emotions, unlike behaviors, are not good or bad. They are not positive or negative, nor are they right or wrong. Emotions are simply feedback- information telling us what we like, and what we don't like. Emotions alert us to how we are experiencing our environment. Every emotion we experience offers us important information, which can help us make critical decisions in our lives. Experiencing jealousy from time to time is normal, although most of us are uncomfortable acknowledging it; we feel ashamed, believing it is "wrong" to feel as we do. We do not enjoy the feeling of jealousy, and we wish it would just go away. Part of why jealousy can be so overwhelming is because it is not just one emotion. It is often a complex bundle of emotions; including, but not limited to, fear, insecurity, anger, envy, and anxiety. Unfortunately, like many unpleasant emotions, the more we try to ignore jealousy the worse our experience of it becomes. Jealously, in particular, can really take hold and fester if it isn't addressed openly. (And rejecting our experience only makes us feel worse). So what do we need to do? How can we transform jealousy into a positive experience? The answer is actually much simpler than you might expect; we must pay attention to our experience of jealousy, and discover what it is trying to reveal to us. To begin, examine the feelings contained in your experience of jealousy. Do you feel fearful? Envious? Angry? The first step is identifying the various components of your jealousy, so that you can determine what the issues are and how they need to be addressed. This weeks challenge is intended to encourage you to pay more attention to your feelings in order to learn from them. I would suggest that you start with the more pleasurable feelings, and work your way up to the harder ones over the course of the week.
Step One: When you experience a strong positive emotional response, try to give yourself a few moments to notice it before you respond. How does it feel in your body? What are the thoughts that accompany these emotions? How is noticing your feelings different than simply acting on them?
Step Two: When you feel comfortable with step one, try applying this technique to more challenging emotions (ie jealousy).
Step Three: Notice, and record, what you have discovered about yourself from accepting your emotions- rather than applying the usual technique of running from them.
Wake up!
It's Time to Remember the Wonder of Your Life! Everyday the divine is sending you a message. How will you choose to respond today? Often we allow ourselves to become so entangled by the endless lists of tasks and chores, strung throughout our day, that we totally lose track of the things that are truly precious to us - our family, our friends, the beauty and abundance of the world that surrounds us. We gripe about the weather; it is too hot, too cold, too wet, too dry. Or there is always some little thing that sets us off; there's no milk: the coffee is cold! ... In these moments, we forget about that which matters most to us. We forget that people we love are struggling to wake up too! We forget that we can see them, touch them, speak with them, and share another precious day with them. I would like to encourage you to spend some time noticing the moments that you are grateful for. Take time to acknowledge the beauty and abundance in your life, as it is, in this very moment. Notice how blue the sky and the ocean are. Feel the sun, the rain, or the wind on your skin. Notice the beauty of a sunrise, or a sunset. Notice the beauty in your ch!ld, or your lover, or in a friend's face. Hear the love in their voice when they speak to you - even in their grumbling. This challenge is to immerse yourself a little deeper into the sacredness of your life.
Step One: Every morning when you wake up, before you get out of bed, spend a moment identifying at least ten things that you are grateful for in your life. (i.e. I am grateful that I can see, or I am grateful for my job).
Step Two: Pick one activity to be fully mindful of (i.e. drinking your coffee, or walking the dog), and pay attention to how you feel inside your body as you do it.
Step Three: Do one kind thing for someone else today (i.e. hold a door open for the next person, tell someone they look nice, or smile at someone).
Step Four: Before you go to sleep, list ten things that you are grateful for - write them down, if possible. Repeat everyday for the next week, and notice the difference in the quality of your life and your relationships. Take a long, slow, deep breath, and submerge yourself into the divine that is present in each and every moment of your life; even life's trials and tribulations are a wonder that we can learn from.
For all those of you, who were waiting for me to come online today/tonight:
Hi guys, I promised to come online today, but it didnt work out - I had some difficulties with my stomach and I didnt feel so well. Tomorrow (Monday) I have smaller operation of my left hand, so wish me luck :-) Hope it will be not so painful and hope I will be able to come online after that. So see ya all. Btw. if you are reading my blog, I would like to kindly ask you to send me some power boost points, if you can, it would be nice support and help keeping my finy-fine position on site, I ready to get to top 20 soon :-) For those of you, who have no idea, what are power boost points, check this link please, its all for free :) ..sending me power boost points is nice way how to show me your sympathy & support even if you dont have credits actually :o) how to send power boost points: http://www.flirt4free.com/game/power-score-boosts/
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Im sooooooo happy..
I could sh!t rainbows.. :-p
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One of the things that is wrong with religion is that it teaches us to be satisfied with answers which are not really answers at all.
Richard Dawkins
guy with funny comment:
You're beautiful, baby... But, I hate fishnets. The only "fish" I like is the "clam" between your legs. LOL!
I AM
I AM = two of the most powerful words for what you put after them shapes your reality.
Plzzzzzzz
When people ask me "Plz" because its shorter than "Please" I tell them "No" because its shorter than "Yes".. :D
How to deal with difficult people..
We learned that about 90% of the people that we all encounter on a daily basis want to "get along" with society and the difference of 10% don't want to. We all tend to dwell on that 10% of the haters and not the 90% of the lovers (so to say). It is part of our nature - we all care how society perceives us. I just say to myself - everything in the world must have an opposite (like the yin and yang). We wouldn't know good unless there was bad, light without dark, sweet without sour, strong without weak, pleasure without pain... Hence the saying "take the good with the bad." So, I turn it into a lesson for my "ego" - reminding myself that I can't control the world but I can control how I respond to it. And most of the time when people are negative towards others, it's because they're ignoring/burying their own personal demons deep inside their subconscious - which just manifests into anger and negativity towards others. I think that people who are really concern have a really hard time with negative energy, even if it is inevitable. We want to reach others, to connect and to give them something. But, as they keep turning us down, it's like they condemn what we are. And that hurts. So, I decided I have to learn to be proud of what I can do, and to let go of what I can't. After each negative comment you receive ('cause there will be more), honestly ask yourself: "did I try everything I could to connect with this person, to help her?" If the answer is yes, then let go. If it is no, then correct your position, the way you react.
2 days OFF - I will be back on Friday
Check my schedule to see part of the day I use to be online.
Enjoying 2 days OFF, I have few things to do, so busy-busy (nail artist, pedicure, grand parents visit, shopping, bank, taxes, and dinner with my 2 friends - my ex-schoolmates :-)
I would like to kindly ask you to send me some power boost points while Im offline (to get to know how to send power boost points or what is it and how is it working, read blog below, please :-)
Take care till friday, xoxo.
L.
THIS MAY SAVE YOUR LIFE
Written by a Cop for Our Own Safety
Everyone should take 5 minutes to read this. It may save your life or a loved one\'s life.
In daylight hours, refresh yourself of these things to do in an emergency situation...
This is for you, and for you to share with your wife, your ch!ldren, & everyone you know.
After reading these 9 crucial tips, forward them to someone you care about.
It never hurts to be careful in this crazy world we live in.
1. Tip from Taekwondo: The elbow is the strongest point on your body. If you are close enough to use it, do!
2. Learned this from a tourist guide: If a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse, DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM! Toss it away from you.. Chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or purse than you, and he will go for the wallet/purse. RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!
3. If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car, kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out the hole and start waving like crazy.. The driver won\'t see you, but everybody else will. This has saved lives..
4. Women have a tendency to get into their cars after shopping, eating, working, etc., and just sit
(doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc.). DON\'T DO THIS! The predator will be watching you, and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the passenger side, put a gun to your head, and tell you where to go. AS SOON AS YOU GET INTO YOUR CAR, LOCK THE DOORS AND LEAVE.. If someone is in the car with a gun to your head DO NOT DRIVE OFF, Repeat: DO NOT DRIVE OFF! Instead gun the engine and speed into anything, wrecking the car.Your Air Bag will save you. If the person is in the back seat they will get the worst of it. As soon as the car crashes bail out and run. It is better than having them find your body in a remote location.
5. A few notes about getting into your car in a parking lot, or parking garage:
A.) Be aware: look around you, look into your car, at the passenger side floor, and in the back seat.
B.) If you are parked next to a big van, enter your car from the passenger door. Most serial k!llers attack their victims by pulling them into their vans while the women are attempting to get into their cars.
C.) Look at the car parked on the driver\'s side of your vehicle, and the passenger side.. If a male is sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back into the mall, or work, and get a guard/policeman to walk you back out. IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid than dead.)
6. ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs. Stairwells are horrible places to be alone
and the perfect crime spot. This is especially true at NIGHT!
7. If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control, ALWAYS RUN! The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times; and even then, it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN, Preferably in a zig-zag pattern!
8. As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic: STOP! It may get you raped, or killed. Ted Bundy, the serial k!ller, was a good-looking, well educated man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of unsuspecting women. He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked \'for help\' into his vehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim.
9. Another Safety Point: Someone just told me that her friend heard a crying baby on her porch the night before last, and she called the police because it was late and she thought it was weird.. The police told her \'Whatever you do, DO NOT open the door..\'. The lady then said that it sounded like the baby had crawled near a window, and she was worried that it would crawl to the street and get run over. The policeman said, \'We already have a unit on the way, whatever you do, DO NOT open the door.\'. He told her that they think a serial k!ller has a baby\'s cry recorded and uses it to coax women out of their homes thinking that someone dropped off a baby.. He said they have not verified it, but have had several calls by women saying that they hear baby\'s cries outside their doors when they\'re home alone at night.
10 . Water scam! If you wake up in the middle of the night to hear all your taps outside running or what you think is a burst pipe, DO NOT GO OUT TO INVESTIGATE! These people turn on all your outside taps full blast so that you will go out to investigate and then attack. Stay alert, keep safe, and look out for your neighbors!
Please pass this on.
This should probably be taken seriously because the Crying Baby Theory was mentioned on
America\'s Most Wanted when they profiled the serial k!ller in Louisiana.
I\'d like you to forward this to all the women you know.
It may save a life.
A candle is not dimmed by lighting another candle..
I was going to send this to the ladies only, but guys, if you love your mothers, wives, sisters, daughters, etc., you may want to pass it onto them, as well.
Tell this to any woman you know that may need to be reminded that the world we live in has a lot of crazies in it and it\'s better to be safe than sorry..
Everyone should take 5 minutes to read this. It may save your life or a loved one\'s life .
Why Independence In A Relationship Is Important
So many people get stuck in a relationship that really isn't going to satisfy them. There are so many aspects about living in a happy relationship, yet we wonder why many of our relationships fail. Why have my relationships failed? Perhaps I am trying to love the wrong person? I'm sure we have all asked ourselves these question at one point in time.
I have had time to reflect this year on past relationships and set new expectations for my future partner. In the past I would never give myself any "down time" in between relationships. It would be typical for me to go from one relationship to the next.
I believe a healthy relationship is made up of two mentally strong people. They each lead independent lives and have the desire and ability share their lives as well. A few reasons why balance is important but also difficult for both people to understand.
1. Support-a relationship is a partnership. If your partner is independent, confident and comforatble he or she will be more supportive when a full moon arises! Knowing you can count on the other person is a relief in itself.
2. Confidence- having confidence in your other half while you're at work or engage in another situation will relieve you of having to worry about them at all times.
3. Flow- relationships need to be able to flow and may require for one person to lean on the other person from time to time.
Independent people mean a more balanced relationships. Be independent! Your relationship will be healthier! When balance isn't present the relationship becomes lop sided and one has to take on the roll of a dominating figure and one as the "weak one". This is better known as "wearing the pants". Having a equilibruim in relationships means no one partner is more or less powerful than the other. Easier said then done.
beeing curvy..
..a woman without curves is like jeans without pockets - you dont know where to put your hands..
and btw. curve is the loveliest distance between two points! :-)))
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